Had to let it out. :)

Maybe in theory - or for homework purposes - People have heard/saw me saying/writing this.. but I guess all of us (in one way or the other) experience it personally.

I just did.

I say that you can only experience Joy when you have had a good dose of Pain.

I had a taste of the former now, and a whole truckload of the latter just a week ago.. and you know what? It feels amazing.

Considering the fact that last week, I was on the verge of throwing it all away, today, I'm on the zenith of happiness, maybe not the hyper happiness.. but the true one..

True happiness as in contentment.

True happiness as in exalting in the jubilance of others.

True happiness as in hearing God saying "Everything will be okay."

I have been impatient, materialistic, even unfaithful at some point..

But today has made me realize why I'm here and who I'm here for.

These are just challenges, just unavoidable circumstances, and I'm ready to fight. Ready to run into battle because I know that with His shield, His armor, His guidance, His protection, and His love.. all of these are just miniscule problems. And if I look at them at the end of all this, I'll be laughing and remembering how naive and ignorant I became, and - ultimately - how mature I turned out to be.

Last week was downtime, this week's turning out good.. I'm praying tomorrow - and the succeeding days - turn out to be the best.

I hope they will. I pray they will. I know they will.

:)

4:34 AM

All impermanent.

All fast paced.

All changing wildly every time.

I want the world to stand still.

Just this one time..

And for once I just want to be heard.

:)

Note: Tomorrow, July 8, at 4:05:06 AM.. the calendar (American - mm/dd/yy) will be 4:05:06 07/08/09. But If you rely on the British Calendar (dd/mm/yy), you'll have to wait 'til the 7th of August. :)