Today just feels like a limbo. I want to cry, I want to laugh, I want to fake apathy, I want to get angry, I want to scream, and ironically, I want to not feel at all.
I don't know. Today started out amazingly. In fact, my mood went from good to practically ecstatic as the day progressed. However, the rain had to get in the way. You know how sometimes we laugh at how pathetic people in movies are when they get all sad while it's pouring while they don their earphones on and listen to Nickel Creek or Coheed and Cambria? I was that person earlier tonight.
When I got home, I gave myself a scalding hot shower while listening to Yiruma. After that, I put on my favourite PJs on and wrote a letter to my dad (nope, I'm not a cheesy daughter, it was actually required for something) and since I was reminded of this video, I couldn't help but gouge my eyes out crying. Don't blame me, it's been 2 months since I last saw my 'rents and about a month since I last talked to my dad over the phone!
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Also filed under: A shitty day because I gave it permission to become one even though I shouldn't have,
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