Recently I've been feeling stumped due to my spiritual dryness. Honestly though, it's not the dryness that bothers me but the fact that it has escalated into something spiritual. If this were religion-centered, I would simply tell myself to reflect for a few days, pray hard, and emerge feeling better.
That's not what has been happening, however. Right now even praying seems like a daunting task.
I feel it's part of the fact that I find myself slowly disagreeing with the sermons of the parish priest in the nearby church, I hear bad rumors about the parish priest of our village, YFC isn't the same from where I came from, and I've been letting myself be surrounded by people who don't believe instead of me teaching them otherwise.
I want my faith back. That's all. I want to have that thing with God again. I want to feel as though I'm living for something else. If I can't restore my full trust in my religion again especially since it's detesting all types of things I have an open mind with (like the RH bill, for example, and the Church's threat to excommunicate people who are for it), then at least the full trust in my spirituality and in my God.
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