Guess who's on the verge of crying right now?

I graduate in 5 hours and although I am ecstatic from the thought of freedom away from the imposing rules and regulations of the school, there's an even bigger part of me that feels empty. It's as if a friend - a close one, at that, one who was with me every single day of my life - of 4 years left me because she thought I'd be better off without her and that she needed to go on with my life without me.

I don't know what to do. A part of me is numb, wanting nothing but lay here in my bed, visualize myself floating, not knowing where to go but to endless oblivion. The other part's sad, not just because I'll be leaving but because I can't do anything to bring everything back.

Sure, high school life is probably a part of my life I'd rather leave at times, but there are more times that I've felt happiest in my life because of it.

I'll tell you a secret, sometimes the only thing I have left when I wanted something tangible to touch aside from God is them.

My classmates, my friends, my hombres, my sisters, my brothers, a quintessential factor of my life.

My hands are shaking now, I don't know where to go from here. What I do know is that I'll never take time for granted again.

Graduation..