Sanity and Forever

I never knew what love was. Heck, I never even acknowledge its existence until after that night on the 23rd. Or 24th. Or maybe in between, all this talk about space and time confuse me so. But one thing is sure, whatever that was.. it was magical.

I know I don't really act the way people set parameters for as to how normal girls should act, I know I don't even give a damn on how I look like in the mirror, nor do I comb my hair or fix it up.

I know I don't do things the way you like them to.. call me arrogant, but I guess it's you with the problem.

Just you.

I never really knew I in was love with you. Why? Because every time you talk to me, I feel normal. I don't feel light headed, no butterflies erupt in my stomach, no nasty twists and turns.

When I talk to you, I don't stammer. My heart beats normally, if not slower.. my hands cease sweating.. my confidence oozes from every deep crease from within, and radiates itself to you.

When you smile, no magical rainbows appear and no arrows puncture my heart.

Why do I love you?

And more especially, why do I love you so sanely?

Why don't days always turn for the good when I'm with you? Why does it not rain when all I want is to feel comfort? Why do birds fly when they should be singing hymns to celebrate us two?

That's how fairy tales work, and maybe - at the back of my mind - I expected things to work out the same way.

But they didn't.

And you know what, I'm glad.

I'm glad ours isn't like a fairytale. I'm glad ours isn't a magical world full of positives. I'm even glad that we experience heart aches at times.

You know why?

Because I'd rather live in a life of reality with you plus a forever, than living in a fantasy world with a prince plus a happy ending.

Forevers never end. Endings? They fear that everlasting word.

Which made me remember what you said last night..

"Which is longer, forever or an eternity?"

"Are you asking about us?"

"Yes"

"Then I will love you more than those two combined."

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This was something I posted in a fanfiction site, I don't remember what my password is, though.. so I can't open it. One of my very first works. :)