Another shallow rambling.

I've been in college for 6 months now, and although I am far from complaining, I have been realizing that the more I try to be the person I was in high school, the more I fall deep into the trench of hesitation.

Now that I've taken a better look at myself here in college, I realized I haven't really given my best. I know I have the potential, I have the skill and God forbid I have the time... but then I don't have the drive. I don't have that drive I had in high school, when I knew that I had to do something because the rest of the student population knew I could do it, and what more, they knew I wanted to do it.

In high school I always thought I was unbeatable. I guess I blame a part of this to the fact that I practically grew up in my school, and everyone knew me. Heck, I was known. And I loved it. I was led to believe that things won't be the same without me and that the student body would virtually be lost with my absence.

But then I entered college. I'm not sure if this is a good thing, but the first thing I learned in college was that it won't always be about me. The world doesn't revolve around me, people could live without me, and (here comes the bitter truth) the people I was positive would miss me wouldn't - at least not as much as I do them. I guess it shocked me too much because it didn't just humble me -  which is what people will become when they realize these things - but it destroyed my faith in myself.

I turned quiet. I blended in the crowd. I became no one.

But that's not me.

At least that's not what my younger self was.