Black sheep

It's bothersome how you can feel yourself change once you're brought into an unfamiliar place. I've been feeling that change, and no matter how much I try, it's trying to forcefully twist me in positions I've never been in and bring me to places I never knew I'd see myself go.

Recently, I've been trying hard to say "I'm fine" and convince people that even I am convinced. But when I find myself alone, I realize I'm not. I realize that I miss where I came from. I realize that two months ago, at this time, I was genuine when people asked me how I was and I said "I'm fine."

I can only confine my feelings to my writing because I don't like talking about myself vocally, so I'm going to say this here once; no explanations, no misgivings, no second thoughts..

"No. Right now, I am not fine."

There would be better days.