Welcome to the latter part of my 2009.

I want you to know

That when you look into my eyes

I'm reminded that I'm loved

And I know with all I am that you care.

The way you look at me tonight

With all the stars of heaven shining down

Their glory embrace us and links

Two new souls, two new hearts

And I pray this never ends,

I want this to last a lifetime,

I want the both of us, our lives

Intertwined.

It's not forever, it's not endless,

But this time I want it to be..

Even if we just stare into each other's eyes..

Even for just one momentful night.

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I remember exactly when I wrote this, and it was probably one of those nights were I was clear-headed but all I wanted to do was fly.

It sucks.

It sucks when the person you thought was it.. isn't (or wasn't, I guess). When you thought you two were going to be amazing but suddenly everything just went downhill. When you thought that it'd be something solid, but everything you worked hard for just vanished because of something you're not even sure of doing..

And the worst thing is..

He never knew. He probably never would. He'd never know that during the course of his existence in your life, you fell.. but he wasn't able to break your fall.

He'd never know that while he's happy now, you'd always stay behind that mask, saying "I'm fine," every time he asks you how you are and smiling every time he looks at you. He'd never know. Not because he never let you, but because you never let yourself.